Today

Written on 6-28-13

Today has become the end

Not for me

But for everything around me

Today has shown me that

I stand alone

And that my points become more moot

As the days pass

Today has given me

The dreadful gift of emptiness

Wrapped in grief and sorrow

But most of all

Today has weighed me down

Dragging me to the bottom

Of a bottomless pit of despair

I am alone

For I am the weak link

In the strong chain

I sit and wait

Hoping to wake up

From this awful and dreadful place

But I still lay asleep in this nightmare

The pain from years of built up emotions

Has finally began to eat away at my core

And is savoring every sip of my soul

I know my emotions hold very little value

For what I feel isn't true

What I feel is an opinion

But it's the truth to me

My perception has glared over

Many memories and events

And everything is starting to become a blur

If I could stop it

If I knew how to stop it

I would

But I fear it is too late to pull the break

So today has become the ending

The beginning of the ending

And all I can do is sit here and wait.