Written
on 1-12-12
Tears cried
Blood shed
Hair fallen
Time wasted
Soul gone
The pain that was caused
Had such an effect
No one cared though
No one cared that she had cried
Or cut
Or was losing hair
Or wasting away
Or lost
She started to realize
That no one was the reason
For her pain
She was alone
No friends to make her laugh
No love to beat her heart
No good to rid the bad
No light in her darkest hour
But she figured
That that's how it's
Supposed to be
She thought she was meant
To be used
Their happiness came
From her pain
She was apathetic towards this
As she grew sadder and lonesome
The people that used to care
Left and became happy
She thought she caused it
Their pain
And she thought that them leaving
Was so they were happy
She thought it was just
But even so she question
If they were unhappy
Why would they have just left
She pondered endlessly
Becoming more depressed
She couldn't cry
Or speak
Or even have energy to awaken
This went unnoticed
By everyone that had cared
But now, it didn't matter
Her reality had morphed
From okay to hopeless
She thought she had no point
If she hurt others
Then she should hurt herself
Others had no problem hurting her
She just needed to do what they did
Lie, manipulate, curse, and hate
She started doing just that
She was cutting and burning
She wouldn't eat
She would call herself terrible things
All just to understand
But after awhile she didn't
She didn't understand anything
Not life, and not herself
In all of the pain
She had lost herself
She had lost her friends
And had lost her emotions
And thoughts
Upon realizing this
She was to lost to see
Or care about it
She didn't care if she was hurt
Only if others were
And she would blame their pain
On herself
And hurt herself even more
When she would be seen
No one recognized her
She was gone
Her soul was hollow
Her skin became pale
Her eyes dull
And for the most part
She had become mute
She was gone
No one cared
But she was gone
Even through her departure
They still talked
And hurt
And cursed
No one saw what they caused
But no one cared
They thought it was better
She thought it was better
She had never stopped changing
Until one day she couldn't
She had saw herself as dead for too long
That her thoughts took a hold of her heart
And stopped it
Stopped the beating
Stopped the blood
Stopped her life.
