Written on 4-9-12
All the things you do for her
Everything you never did for me
And at this point it has become obvious
That I was just there to pass time
You never spoke highly of me
Except, not after the first month
And you never wanted to see me
I might as well have been gone
All you do is talk of her
It's like she is your entire world
Sort of like how you said I was your everything
But I should have seen it sooner
I know love is blind
But I had to of been walking in the dark
With a blindfold on
And that's not even the worst part
I was played and lied to
It was like a game
My heart was the piece
And you were the player
I would wait outside for you
Endlessly
And sometimes you wouldn't show
You wouldn't even call to say you couldn't
I was a fool
Because I believe in the one thing
That I should have never gotten involved with
And thing was you
You picked me up so easily
And just as easily dropped me
And left me shattered
But that's just who you are
If I had known this then
It would have never been
And sometimes
I wish it never was
I know this is cruel
But I can't anymore
Stay quiet and tear-filled
And trying to protect you
I can't protect you
Because you didn't protect me
You just threw me away
As soon as you thought you found "true" love
And it's such nonsense that you felt bad
And that you were sorry
Because if you truly were
You would stop dragging me around
But I guess that is partially my fault as well
Because I foolishly believed you and your lies
The whole time you deceived me
And I just don't understand it
Actually what I really don't understand
Is why I fell so hard for you
And even after you left a whole in my chest
I still feel like I owe you
And with that in mind
I realize that I don't
Never have and never will
You hurt me
And the worst part of it all
Is that I still care
And I enjoy that we're still close
But I keep all of this in mind
Subconsciously I guess I still believe
That at one point in time we were happy
But outside of that detonated space
I know the truth.
The truth is that you lied
And you can never
Ever change that.
