Written on 2-25-12
Those moments
When you realize
Just how stupid you were
And you can't help
But to laugh
Cry
And die a little
How every touch
Feels like the edge
Of a piece of paper
Dull
But at the same time
Sending chills
Throughout your body
Every tear that falls
Every cut that was made
Every sleepless night
The way every area in your life
Is the same
Empty with everything there
Cold with slight warmth
Time seems to have stopped
Even though everyone
Has kept moving
Closing your eyes
For just a second
Could turn into
Never seeing the colors
That don't exist
In this world
In your world
Everything falls apart
Nothing is real
Everyone is just a slur
For every starless sky
For every dance not had
For every heart without a beat
For every bird with broken wings
For every promise never kept
For every love that was lost
And forgotten
The sky that never got a chance to
shine
Never had a chance to shine one
light
On one single soul
That lingered in aimless circles
below
Wandering in the dark
That would never have the night's
light
As if it was never there
The dance that was never had
All the music was destroyed
And all the people deaf and mute
A beatless heart
That sat in a broken ribcage
Vulnerable to everything
That could no longer hurt it
Nor be sought out to broken
It was gone
Crumbling and becoming dust
The bird that sat in a home
Of sticks and grass blades
Would always be alone
No one would come
To mend the broken wings
So the poor soul
Could fly away
Promises that are never kept
They are never meant to be kept
Only to be given away and broken
But beyond this world
Going deep into a crevice
Burrow down into it
Until it is an entrance
And enter the doorway
To immediately forget
Every bit of love ever had
For in this world
Nothing is real
Everyone is a projection
Of your mind's need for others
Sound is just everything slipping
away
This life could never exist for it
is merely a figment
Of something that was never meant
to be.
