Today

Written on 6-28-13

Today has become the end

Not for me

But for everything around me

Today has shown me that

I stand alone

And that my points become more moot

As the days pass

Today has given me

The dreadful gift of emptiness

Wrapped in grief and sorrow

But most of all

Today has weighed me down

Dragging me to the bottom

Of a bottomless pit of despair

I am alone

For I am the weak link

In the strong chain

I sit and wait

Hoping to wake up

From this awful and dreadful place

But I still lay asleep in this nightmare

The pain from years of built up emotions

Has finally began to eat away at my core

And is savoring every sip of my soul

I know my emotions hold very little value

For what I feel isn't true

What I feel is an opinion

But it's the truth to me

My perception has glared over

Many memories and events

And everything is starting to become a blur

If I could stop it

If I knew how to stop it

I would

But I fear it is too late to pull the break

So today has become the ending

The beginning of the ending

And all I can do is sit here and wait.

♥

Written on 6-14-2013

Even though we are young

And everyone sees us as kids

The love we share is just as important

And strong as anyone else that has what we have

One thing that is more important

Than the love we share

Is trust.

Love comes with trust

It's a package deal

And I think we're doing amazing

But something else that comes with love

Is jealousy

Jealousy is a terrible thing

But at one point or another

Jealousy can become so strong

That it's unavoidable.

But the thing is

I will always get jealous

To most girls, all girls are a threat

But in this situation

It's one in particular

This girl drives me up to the highest peak

And suffocates me

Until she goes to bed

I don't think I'm wrong to be jealous

Not in this instance

I love and trust you more than anything

But I wouldn't trust her with the oxygen around her

It hurts to see her look at you

The way I look at you

Even though her looks are a failed attempt

I keep in mind that you are my forever

And that nothing will get in the way of that

But the mere thought of her

Her pure, dense ignorance and how she disrespects me

Drives me insane

But then once the green fog

Stops cluttering my mind

I remember that I love you

And that will never change

Because even though she looks at you

The same way I look at you

You look at me that way, and not her

She can make hearts for you

And tell you that she loves you

She can flirt with you in front of me

I will let her do what she pleases

I will no longer stand in the way of her petty attempts

But I will no longer stand in the way

Because I'm standing in the way of nothing

Instead I will stand before you

And hold your hands

I will hold you closer than anyone

In my heart and arms

I will makes hearts for you

And I will always flirt with you

And most importantly, I will tell you that I love you

So I will let her do what she wants

Because after writing all of this

I'm starting to see that it's actually quite funny

And that she's not a threat

I will still keep a watchful eye though

Because who would I be if I didn't?

I wouldn't be very good at my position, now would I?

I will always care and love for you

No matter what comes our way

No one will separate us

And once we're holding each other, I'm not letting go

As for her, she can hit the road.