Hollowed

Written on 4-24-2016

To be alone is a numbing pain

Left breathless and unmoved by time

To be abandoned with one’s own thoughts

Making existing in this world obsolete

Wandering aimlessly on many paths

Hollowed out by the sights unseen

All the while reaching out and trying

Grasping at life and failing to hold on

Distance growing at a steady pace

Wanting to something other than pain

Even the happiest of moments are bittersweet

The silver lining of it all is tarnished

Day in and day out

Nothing to do

Just to wait and brood over the unknown

To move forward and slip away from the past

An Open Letter

Written on 1-19-2016

For the hours spent crying and talking to myself

For the scars that I bare on my body and soul

For every ounce of pain I have felt

I am no longer blaming myself

I am tired of being treated like a burden

Then hearing the words, “I love you”

I am tired of being invited

Then being ignored the entire time

I am tired of doing things for others

Only to be knocked down and belittled in every way

I am tired of being questions and prodded

I have nothing left

To say

To give

To do

For anyone but myself