Ponder For Me, If You Will

Written on 1-6-12

It was a run

No exact distance

But we are now two

You no longer had a want

For our love

For a time I was alone

By myself

Left in the dark

But then I moved on

To someone that made me smile again

You were told of this

And you are now saddened

For I am no longer waiting

Sitting in the musty pit

I am no longer attached

For now I am left torn

Between what I know

And what is yet to be discovered

I want to be yours

But you aren't ready

Maybe down the path

You and I will be us again

But for now

We are close friends

Caring ones, too

I still cry over memories

I'm not sure if you do

But I know you think about it

The way it was

How I was one-of-a-kind

The sad part is that I still think

And wish to go back

But I just can't

Not here

Not now

I knew I had to let go

When I found out that

You told her

How much you wanted to be with her

Before we even parted

That's what hurt the most

The day of lies

You told me you loved me

You told me that I was yours forever

But it stopped just like that

You even still treated me good

As if I were still yours

But then you just stopped

Out of nowhere

You couldn't even hold me

That is when I knew it was over

Scene faded, curtains fell

And after you left that day

I fell to my knees and cried

For hours, awake and asleep

 The tears that fell and are falling

Don't even come close

To the amount of pain I have

Nothing can come close

To the way you broke my heart

The deepest trenches known to man

To not come close to the cuts in heart

Dust in the wind could never touch upon

My fading soul

A power outage is not to my dead thoughts

I am beyond lost

But you keep telling me it will be okay

I just don't understand why

If you still love me,

Why don't you want me?

That is all I want to know

Whether the answer is long or short

Or the question needs to be explained

I just want to know

Why you still see my spirit as "love".