Same Love, Alternate Ending

Written on 9-21-10

So close, yet so far

Hand in hand

Your arms around my waist

Mine around your neck

As if no one else around

The only sound that could be heard

Was our beating hearts and breathing

As if we were one

One heart, one breath, just one

As we sit there, so close to one another

Eyes looking at one another

There’s a comfort

We were in the understanding grounds

In what this was built upon

Let us start anew; from the beginning

We were sitting close

Talking and trying not to mess up

When one would look up, the other away

Shy, so very shy

And then you asked

If we should try

To stand not alone as two

But together as one

From that stand point we grew

Started with a hug and just getting to know each other

And even then we were both nervous

As our stomachs would sink

And we would become speechless

Just sitting in each other’s company

Then there was our first

We had no idea what we were doing

As our lips touched

While all noise became mute

We leaned away

As if the two children inside

Were playing tease

And then we sat there

Our hearts pounding

To the point where they

Could have broken out of

Our trapping bodies

And into one another’s soul

Just merely children

But not exactly so

It was deeper than that

Like this was supposed to happen

It was the ending of a fairy tale

But for us, it was only the beginning

The next we meet again

We sit there as if nothing happened

And then once again, we kiss

I blush, and you sit there

Your knowing that I was shy

And you held me closer

Pulling me up onto your lap

And holding, just holding

And our hearts beat at a calm rate

It was out of our comfort zones

Your grip loosened

At that moment, I looked up

To see that you were watching me

I was still a child, but you had grown slightly

It was at this moment that you leaned back

Wanting me to get closer

And I did

With you arm around me

And mine laying lightly on your torso

Along with my head

And I fell asleep

You didn’t wake me

You just sat there

Again, just watching me

And then I woke up

To see you still there

I sat up slightly

As did you

And you pull me closer than ever before

But this time I was facing you

I wrapped my legs around you

And we hugged one another

Heartbeats the same

Breathing at a rapid rate

We then looked at one another

You kissed my cheek

As I did to you

I then giggled

Me still being the child

And you were guiding me

At that moment

We became one

One heart, one soul

One… love

It was love

I had started to speak

And then those words came from your lips:

“I love you”

I sat there with a slight smile and looked down

I said “I love you too”

Then we became kids again

But we thought we knew so much

It was our innocence

That made our love into dust

After that point

We had grown so close

And then it happened

You shoved me

Not only bruising me

But my heart as well

I didn’t want to believe it

So I stayed quiet

And waited

But then faith interfered

And I had to move

You wanted to break up

So we did

And once again

We just sat there quiet

Then you stood up

But before you walked out of my life

You picked me up one last time

And we kissed

At that moment, we didn’t lean away

We didn’t want it to end, but it had to

And then we stopped

Tears running down my face

You left as soon as you could

For you were crying too

Our love was forbidden

Everything we did and said

To each other

Wasn't meant to be

Though we were children

And we were new to the adult world

But it felt so real

And at this age things like this aren’t supposed to last

And we are both over each other

At least I am

We will remain friends

Which is what we should have been in the first place

For our love of a fairytale

Came to an end

As the cover closed

And we went on in separate ways.