Goodbye

Written on 5-1-12

The gap grows larger by the day

And every second that passes

A memory fades

With every moment that is spent

Crying over the past

Present time is wasted

The past should have never been

It should have never existed

But it did

And instead of looking at everyday

As a wonder in itself

I sit here and wish to erase everything

The pain has grown to the point that I barely speak

I can hardly bare the burden of movement

And I find myself holding my breath

But why should I be upset

It was just a game to you

All you did was make up a story

But you never wrote the ending

So lets start off the ending

With how you lied to me

For three days you kept a secret

That you knew would destroy me

But I guess that was your goal

For three whole days you still said

"I love you more than anything" but forgot to add

"but her" to the end

And then you did it

You ended it and not just that

 You blamed me

Well for an hour I still believed that I loved you

And I felt sorry for myself

But then I started to put it all together

You had fallen for her

And you left me

For her

And then funny part

Is that it had always been like this

Every day together was a lie

Now you still deny it

But I know you never cared for me

I was just a place holder

And seven months later

After all is set and done

I finally finished the puzzle

The love that was shared

Was nothing more than

A publicity thing

And now I realize

How stupid I was

A what a jerk you were

But now for the ending of the chapter

This ending of which I have awaited for

And here it is:

"And now that I know the real you

I no longer have a need for you in my life.

You were a regret and a life lesson.

The regret being the whole relationship,

and the life lesson being look for the signs

early on and never fall for an asshole

like you."

So with that being said

And the cover being closed

This is my final goodbye.